Sometimes I rly wonder a lot, wondering whether I'm important to you. Wonder whether I truly belong in your world or just a piece of shit left at the side. Wonder whether u rly treasure me. Wonder whether u truly love me...
Ya, I agree that I wonder a lot and I wonder too much. But, all this wonderings allowed the time pass-by rly fast. Especially during the night, before I sleep. Tearing and wiping them off, tearing and wiping them off. They're just a routine of mine. I just have to get used to it or get them outta my mind once and for all. But it ain't gna be easy.
Not just those basic wonderings I wonder at night. I even imagine. Imagine's a big word to use but it's the only word I can think of, to use. Ya, like the most recent one, imagining myself to diagnose with cancer and asking myself whether u wld call and ask whr am I.. Whether I'm okay and how's my day.. But even for now, when I'm physically okay, u wldn't call, even if I asked u to..
So, are those wonderings and imaginations gna take over me.... For life?
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