Hopeless

如果我走了，你会不会留我，还是看着我走

Really feeling hopeless and down since ytd. Ya I know it all boils down to me not being hardworking enough. But I rly did put in effort for some subjects right? What did I score? Not that I'm complaining and whining. But I still can't get over it. Tears rly come rolling down non-stop. For even the slightest thought of it.

Another thing, I just need support for now. I can't handle this all on my own. Boyf scored rly well but all I can say is, congrats and all the best to him.. From the scene I seen him going up the stage, first though of mine, "u're not gna match him. Get away from him. Break it." Ya wtf am I thinking? Ikr. I held on for 2yrs plus and I'm here telling myself to break this relationship..... I'm just afraid for the worst to ever happen....

So what am I supposed to do now..?