Lost

Recently, many things happened to me. Many major ones too. Had many phone calls with the boy, but I've still lost him. I've lost my guybestfriend, my partner, my awesome, my lover, my buddy, my boyfriend, my everything. Yes, I've lost him. It hurts a lot. How can I ever be happy when I lost a person that went through so much things with me? Be it the ups, or the downs.

He left me with a line, "Let's just be friends". That line really killed me a lot. Like damn, get me a knife and stab me right through the heart. 835 days tgt when we said that. Yes, he made it clear to me. But still my heart's fluttering.. Not knowing what really had happened, and to my heart, it still wasn't clear.

Is it really that easy to leave to a person that really loved you dearly for the past days, weeks, months, years.....? I know myself that I haven't been giving my best to the relationship but I always told myself that it all doesn't matter as it all boils down to a simple thing whether I truly love him or not. Answer is, yes. I love him a lot. And I need him a lot too. He's my pillar of strength, love, care and concern. I love and need him like how Minnie loves and needs Mickey, Daisy loves and needs Donald, Juliet loves and needs Romeo.

"I love you. I really do. Did you really give up everything we two had in this relationship? Are you really able to let go of everything? Feelings, don't you have that teeny weeny lil' bit of it still...? Come back to me..."